Erik and I about a year ago before he got sick again.  

This is my wonderful Hubby and our daughter. There is no question of how much love we have for each other. 

Life, What a Miracle

Life, what a miracle it is
To hear the song of breaking day
To see the brilliance of its dawn upon the earth
To smell the sweet fragrance of the bay
To taste the liquid of rebirth
-Lucia-

My Hubby..

My hubby and I will have been married for four years now. Add about six years of being friends and we've been together for quite sometime. He and I will not be together on our anniversary for the first time. You see my husband has cancer. I knew he had it before the day we were married but before the first year was up so was his cancer. During that time that his cancer was in remission, we had the great fortune and blessing to have conceived a daughter. We spent a good year and a half before he got sick again. This time it has been more of a struggle than ever before. He tries to cope with not always being able to do the things he feels he should be able to do. I work as hard and as much as I can to maintain the insurance through my job, the joy in our home, and the insanity that threatens to overcome us. We have made it through the last year with all it holidays. Our daughter is getting bigger, more talkative, and much faster for mama and dadda to run after. Our lives are very full but it would never have been if it weren't for my husband. He means everything in the world to me. We have always had great friendship. As a friend he has been someone who is always there for me in times of disarray and havoc as well as in times of joy and fun. Erik is the kind of person that I can feel comfortable with in whatever the situation might be. If we argue, no matter how spiteful the conversation could get, in the end we always come out as friends. You can't beat someone one who takes you just the way you are, flaws and all.

I like to brag about my husband. He's not perfect, but he is mine and I love everything that he is. I will stand by him in life no matter what happens and I want him to know it and the world can know it too.

Right now, we are hitting a really rough spot in our lives, more his life than anything else. He is starting to lose faith that he will ever recover from this cancer. I hope that this will not be the case. I don't know how to comfort him any more but I hope that he will find new strength to keep it together. I will love him no matter how bad things may seem to get between us and I just hope that he realizes it. I hope that he understands that though I may not suffer the constant probing and prodding, that I suffer with him too. I don't like to see my love in pain and its hard not to be able to be with him every waking moment of the day. I get burnt out too; trying to play the role of the working mom and care-giving wife. I try my best but if I lose it, I hope that it is understood why.

I want and hope only the best for my husband. I love you Erik.